I didn’t just want less stuff.
In fact at my core, embarking on minimalism was about ‘things’ the least.
I had just come out of a very rough patch in life, my heart was broken and my so called life-direction had blown away in the hurricane that followed. I hadn’t been truly in touch with who I was for a good decade and as a result I had no idea what I, as just ‘me’, now wanted out of life.
When I moved on with only essentials I was unconsciously peeling back the layers of the life that had just been dismantled in an effort to try to find ‘me’.
‘Me’ wasn’t something I could tap into easily, or in any short timeframe. I realised I had to allow the process that time gifts, reveal more of me, one piece at a time.
In the moments of change that left my legs collapsed beneath me, down there on the ground I began to uncover the girl I was once; independent, creative and full of wonder. My joy in being, my excitement for the world and all its people had been tossed aside over the years which I realised was one of my most fulfilling expressions.
The weight that lifted from freeing myself from commitments and possessions provided the opportunity to start exploring how to live the life I had only dreamed of.
The most amazing discovery was that it was only a little bit of readjusting away.
We get caught up in what a dream life is. We think it is shooting for the stars and dismiss going for it, when in fact, if we sit down and map it out, it is often just a few short tweeks away.
Living intentionally cost me what I thought was hard to give up, but in fact I learnt I was yearning to give up the mindless shop wandering, an overflowing, complicated wardrobe, confusion in self-fulfilment, a bad diet, an unhealthy lifestyle, no time for self development, and the debt that comes with wanting more, rather than appreciating more.
I wanted peace.
I wanted simplicity.
I wanted days of intention and focus, where peaceful energy flowed.
And, I got all of these and more in return for just making the room for them to arrive.
It has been a long journey and I now know it will be a lifelong one. For as we grow and change, so I now know to come back to centre often and check in.
I do stumble, I make mistakes, take wrong turns but I have learnt to make my peace, learn the lesson and forgive myself.
I know in my heart I have a deep love for all others and the fact that I know that is enough.
I didn’t get here overnight and to stay here I continually readjust. There isn’t a destination, intentional living is a journey for me.
I tell myself it is a journey into the heart of all I could ever hope for – I may get dreams coming true, I may not – but I know fulfilment is in the trying.
Thanks for being here with me.
If this journey interests you, you can read about if further in my book: Five Bedrooms to Five Boxes, Living Simply with Purpose.