In a day and age when we can do anything and everything we are encouraged to.
We are encouraged to have the education, get a great job, become a mum, go to all the soccer practices, don’t miss a moment in person, captured on video, study some more, stay fit, get out and travel.
We go out and fight for equality, make a stand for what is right in an effort to hold the world together as the caring culture falls apart at the seams, then we come home only to continue leading, holding our selves to account to have a home of care and encouragement as this is the right thing to do and so it must go on our list of required, behaviours and leadership traits in every waking moment.
Oh, and did you fit in there the spiritual retreat, and hire your PT to ensure you remain your best throughout all this and continue chasing your dreams in your spare time.
Well, I think all that noise can piss off – I don’t want it.
Now, I am not saying we shouldn’t make a stand or do or not do any of these examples.
But what needs to be said is that trying to do all this is exhausting, wearing us down and stunting our joy.
The joy that comes from the freedom to explore and chase curiosities – or even have nothing to chase.
The joy from an unplanned day.
The joy in spaces of time and place.
The joy from not having a to-do list that you didn’t get all ticked off so you don’t have the guilt of not getting it all done despite what you did get done.
Sure, I can do it all, but I don’t want to.
I want the downtime created by handing over the reigns and maybe not having the most nutritious meal.
I just want to have a Saturday with nothing on so I can fill it with sleeping in, eating breakfast slowly then sip my coffee in the morning sun – with absolutely no pressure.
I want the space in my life to be able to uncoil from all the stress, expectations and demands of the world, and the ones I put on myself.
I don’t want to do it all.
I want to do a couple great things but that is more than enough because I also want space to play and time to ponder.
I acknowledge that my growth, my life and the best future for me will come when I allow it the space to, rather than demand it to with tasks and lists.
It is great to know I can do whatever I want – but I don’t want to do it all.
I think Superwoman is a great role model for all we can do – but she is better left on the screen for I acknowledge only superhuman powers will enable you to do it all and not break.
And so, with the summer ahead I clear my obligations. I release the reigns and I am sinking into the backseat of life for a while, enjoying the view out the window and letting the warm breeze flow through my hair.